General Life Update

(Idea taken from Stephanie’s Blog)

Wedding Update
• Preparation is going well. This Sunday is the invite making party and I will be so glad to get that checked off the “to do” list. The invites have been the most stressful part of the whole wedding so far.
• Andy and I are working on the “Day of Master Schedule” and it surprises me how much he and I already have taken care of. My over planning has definitely paid off. It is has also occurred to both of us that on the day of our wedding, we will both be extremely busy from about 7 in the am to about sometime after midnight. That makes for a very long day. We then have to be at the Victoria Clipper dock by 7 am the next morning for our honeymoon (Andy and I are very excited for the honeymoon).
• We are starting to get to the part where we ask our friends to help us out (not that they haven’t already) with things like handing out the wedding programs and decorating the bathhouse (We will start the decorating at 9 am…hint…hint).

Life Update
• My grandma is still in the nursing home. Her leg is getting much better, but her dementia is getting worse. I visit her every couple of days for an hour or so. I keep trying to think of little gifts I can bring her to cheer her up, but I am having a hard time finding the right thing. We talk about nonsense mostly, the weather, work, family. Sometimes she shares a memory she has of growing up. I never want to go visit her and while I am there I look at the clock the entire time. I keep going because I know that at some point, I am going to wish I had had more time with her. Last Friday when I went to visit her she was very angry. In her mind she has had her broken leg for years and doesn’t understand why all of a sudden she is in the hospital for it. At one point she was so mad at me she told me to leave. The thing with dementia is usually I can distract her, so one moment she was angry with me, the next we were talking about the episode of MASH that was on her TV. Every time I leave, I am exhausted. I would like to say that this is making me appreciate my life more, but mostly I feel like I am shutting down. I want to hide away for a bit, sleep for a long time and wake up when things make sense.
• Aside from my grandma and the stress of the wedding, life is good. I am slowly working on seeing my friends and pushing myself out of the house. Andy has inspired me to be healthier. He quit smoking 5 months ago, he works out 6 days a week, and he has cut high fructose corn syrup out of his diet. I am not working out 6 days a week, but I have given up soda and a co-worker and I are walking 2 miles every Tuesday and Thursday on our lunch break.