People have told me that the hurt I am feeling now will lessen over time. That my heart won’t ache every time I think of grandma. Eventually, I won’t be so angry when I think of what a beautiful person the world lost on October 3^rd. But I don’t want to forget my grandma. I don’t want the memory of her adventurous spirit to fade as time passes. I want to remember her smile and that mischievous sparkle she always had in her eyes. And if hurting like this means that I will remember her, then I want to hurt. It is worth it. But then I think of grandma and how she would not want me to hurt. She would want me out there, seeing the world, being creative, and enjoying life. So that is what I will do. I will take her memory in my heart wherever I go and in everything I do.