Why I Hate Throw Back Thursdays

It's Thursday again, and for the Facebook world that mean's it is time to post pictures from back in your glory days. Ugh, I hate Throw Back Thursdays. I don't want to be reminded of my glory days, when I was effortlessly attractive (however I didn't think it back then) and free from debt. When I didn't have a job that I loved/sucked my sole for a wage that is never going to enable me to pay back said debt.


I know, I know I have it pretty great. I have a house, plenty of food, clothing, a family that loves me, a fantastic husband, and friends that support me no matter what pity party I happen to be throwing myself (this one included). But sometimes I wonder what fabulous life I could be living if I had just made some different choices, and that my friends, is a dangerous game to be playing.


Sometimes I can't be sure if I chose the life I am living because of my own free will, or because I succumbed to cultural pressures that tell me subconsciously what someone who is "normal" like me is supposed to do/be. Could I be just as happy living internationally with multiple lovers and finally devoting time to my secret wish of being a world renown photographer? Hell, would I feel any more satisfied with my life if I had kids and drove around in a minivan? The thing that gets me about all of this, is that generally speaking EVERYONE feels this way. We all wish we had more money, more/less hair, bigger tits, a smaller waist, better sex. etc. Nobody is satisfied. What is wrong with us?


And then all of a sudden, in the midst of this well stocked pity party, I begin pondering what the effing meaning of life is. How cliché is that? I know that there has to be more to life than worrying about money and sex and global warming and how attractive you were when you were 22 (see I know how to bring everything back full circle) but what is it? Are you there God? It's me Carly. Please answer this question for me just this one time and I promise to go to church every day for the rest of my life (okay probably not, but it was worth a shot).


So in conclusion, eff you Throw Back Thursday. I will skip ahead to Hump Day or Manic Monday and keep my wallowing to a minimum.