Not Me

Last week I interviewed for a job. In my mind there was no reason why I should not get the job. It was where I work already, but in a different department. I knew everyone interviewing me because I work with them pretty much daily. I rocked the interview, I honestly thought the job was mine. But I was wrong. I did not get it. For those keeping track that is 6 jobs now that I have interviewed for and not gotten. I am trying to stay positive and see the silver lining, but I can't. I am saying all the things in my head that I am supposed to be saying "it just wasn't meant to happen," "the perfect job is out there somewhere," but I don't believe any of it. I am so so embarrassed. I know all the people that interviewed me and they didn't pick me. I actually lost the job to someone I also work with daily, so that just puts more salt in the wounds. I don't know what to do. There are not many jobs open in my field right now. People are telling me I should broaden my search and I know they are right, but it has been so long since I have looked for jobs outside of education, I don't even know where to begin anymore.

I have been working on this goal and this career path for over six years now. I enjoy doing it and I am good at it. I just can't seem to convice other people of that.