Over my vacation my grandpa was hospitalized with pneumonia. No one told me this until after I got home. Andy and I went and visited him for the first time yesterday. He looked so frail. I wish people lived forever.
My family doesn’t know how to deal with my grandparents. The family is divided in half which means that nothing substantial is being done. I am filled with anger and hurt. I am frustrated that what seems so easy to me, has become such an ordeal. In the end I am just sad because it means my grandparents are dieing and as a family we are wasting our time fighting about small things and not spending these last precious moments with them. I am angry at myself for finding every excuse in the book for not wanting to visit them. I am angry at myself for not being closer to my family in general. I am angry at my family for not making family a priority. I feel helpless because I don’t know how to change this.
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