May 10, 2011

Waiting is the hardest part

So technically it is only the second day of waiting to hear back from the bank about our future house, but it is already killing me! How am I supposed to make it through possibly 58 more of these?!

Even though I shouldn't be doing it, I keep imagining Andy and I living in the house. I keep wondering things like "What will it feel like to eat breakfast in the kitchen," and "Where should I plant the lavender"? I can't help but dream of a house full of the people I care about, and not feeling embarrassed about where we live.

That is the hardest part about our current situation. I don't want to have people over to my house. As hard as I have tried to keep our little apartment looking nice...it is now falling apart after 5 years of living there. We get the feeling that our landlord doesn't really care and will just fix everything once we have moved. I used to/still love to entertain. I love hosting game nights or dinners, but I don't like our current living space. So, hopefully all that will change soon and I can have a house full of people again!

Fingers crossed!

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